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Bullet1.
2..
3...
4....

I count the dripping
Lines on my arm

1.
2..
3...
4....

Now the pills
Sitting in my hand

1.

Dont forget the bullet
Lonely in my gun

5.....
6......
7.......
8........

Adding a few lines
My picture perfect end

5.....
6......
7.......
8........

Add a few pills
Who said it had to hurt?

1.

Still the lonely
Bullet in my gun

9.........
10.........
11..........
12...........
13............

The lines perfect
Puddle below is growing

9.........
10.........
11..........
12...........
13............

The pills perfect
Thrown into my mouth

1.

Click, boom.
The bullet leaves my gun.

She's goneShe couldn't keep her head up
She couldn't keep the gun down
She couldn't keep her hopes high
Now she never makes a single sound

She couldn't help but feel weak
She couldn't hold on for a day longer
No one to wipe the tears from her face
No one to make her feel stronger

Now she's gone

Like a ghost train bound for nowhere

Gone

Like a whisper of smoke rising towards the sky

Gone like a shadow passing through an empty hallway

And nothings going to bring her back

She couldn't keep a smile on her face
She couldn't dry her tears
She couldn't go on with life knowing
She's never felt love in years

She couldn't help but feel helpless

Walk Away, Im doneWalk away
The lies, deceit
You've pushed me
Too far
Leave me here
I was fine
Til you opened your fucking mouth
I dont need it
I dont need you.
Just walk away.

These handsMy body shivers
Thoughts traveling through
like poisonous arrows they strike my head
Find it hard to breath
What is this for kind of madness?!
Everywhere I turn I see your face
Everywhere I go I hear your voice
That serious tone you've acquired
it still freezes my body and soul
Your voice has lost its warmth
I can no longer hear the trust in it
You treat me like the past few months mean nothing
I try to calm down
try to catch my breath
The one you took
Along with my poor little heart
It aches now
Don't you see?
These hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold
Please don't let them go...

Death's ArmsIn life there are many things
That we should fear

Darkness surrounding us
Drowning and washing away
A parents hand across your face
Broken bones and endless bruises
Creepy things crawling into our beds

But the one thing we fear most in life
Is to face out our death

I don't fear death
I don't question what lies ahead
Heaven, Hell, Reincarnation
Doesn't matter in death

Death is not a monster
To behead you with a scythe
I wait safely in Death's arms
Nothing can touch me

Death surrounds us all in life
So there is no need to fear
I just only wait
Until my time has come

Death drops me
Out of his arms I fall

When death release

My SuicideSay goodbye to all the pain
Everyone gets their wish
No ugly comments in my brain
And there is no one left to miss.

Goodbye to all the things you said
None of them matter now
And all of the things that you misread
I know this will make up for it somehow.

The wasted years and time that passed
Will be gone before you know it
This is my turn, my spell to be cast
Just pray that I wont blow it.

You're finally getting what you want
This is no time to cry
The tears I cried and the names you taunt
All lead to this... my suicide...

She mattersShe unloaded her pistol and untied her noose

She dropped her razor blades, threw them away too

She wiped up the blood that she had on her skin

She lifted her head up, ready to start again

She descended her heart to me like an angel from above

After holding on to life, she finally found love

Something changed inside her and she decided to live

She had heart a full of joy and a lot of love to give

She wiped away her tears and held a smile on her face

Now she's happy here with me and we found a better place

She thought no one would miss her, they'd just leave her be

Now she knows that she matters, because she matters to me

ImagineI watched you sitting there, in front of the window, alone
with the scent of night, as if you were caught in
a moonbeam spider web, alone
with pen and paper

I love to watch you
writing left-handed,
as if your words needed protection
With this absent-minded look
in your ocean blue eyes
which see more than all the others see - maybe
they see things more clearly, or rather
they see them how they really are

I love to watch you
breathing life into dead things
and turning sentences into melodies
How you´re able to give the little things significance
and write down what life keeps quiet about
You can make the stones cry and
bring a smile on th

Forever ImperfectMy hands tremble as I graze the grass around me.
The summer breeze tousles my hair.
My breath catches as I take in the surroundings.
The sun beats down on my skin.
And my eyes hunt for someone to notice.
I silently laugh at the irony.
That no one will ever know.
The most obvious matters.
Are always the hardest to identify.
My frail hands skim over the soft blades.
The gusts of wind tangle my brittle hair.
My shallow breathing continues to capture.
The blistering ball of fire attacks my fragile skin.
My eyes hunt for someone to notice.
Just how far I have gone.
Yet no one can see the reality.
Of what is in front of their eyes.

I offeredI offered to kill myself last night,
It would make everyone happy,
But you had to tell everyone.
Ruined it all,
Don't you understand?
I just can't cope.
Life has just got too hard.
Unbearable,
Impossible,
changing me,
Into something i'm not.

completely brokenI am completely broken,
trying hard not to show it.
Trying not to let the tears fall:
Flood,
The classroom floor.

AloneI just need to be alone,
Away from the world.
Away from my so called friends.
I need time to think,
To forget.
Time to move on.
Most of all,
So i don't hurt anyone else.

BeautyBut I will cry for you
who do not see your beauty,
that you are perfect
like so many can only say;
dreams will bow down to you, and you
will be the greatness we aspire to.
The brilliance in your heart
only takes
a moment before the flash illuminates our love
and you
still stare into the mirror
searching
past the beauty,
for something that doesn't exist

I shouldI should be over it,
But it's so hard.
Everything reminds me of you.
People are trying to make things worse..
But i am trying.
Trying ever so hard to move on:
Just not yet succeeding.

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by ~Chocolate-Wood, Jun 6, 2012, 10:45:44 AM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

I'm not strong. I'm not brave.
I'm weak. I'm a coward.
Dont tell me I'm wrong
I know I'm not.

I'm really not OK. I cant pretend
I cant hide anymore
Its all too much
I'm crashing down hard.

I cant do it anymore
Its gotten to hard
Its gone too far
Cant you see?

Aloneby ~Chocolate-Wood

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"[. . .] And I think that's one of the worst parts. I know Im not facing this alone. I know my friends are always there, but it never changes. I always feel alone, and to myself, im only a failure.[. . .]"

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~hermafrodite May 11, 2013

so with ya there bro tom said hed be here for ever. but hes not. he says hes busy with school but how can you spend every second of 2 month busy with school

~Chocolate-Wood May 11, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

People suck nuff said

~SkyFoxxy Oct 23, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

Keh, you hit the nail on the head... I feel so alone sometimes...my buddies are there, but they're not really. They're just words on a screen. Sure, they try, and I tell them they've helped me (sometimes they do) but sometimes I lie. I hide behind =3 XD and omo so they won't see how much I'm hurting... I just want someone who will listen and not judge me by what I'm feeling, which means my whole family is out. I don't know anyone I can just admit the truth to, that I'm falling apart on the inside and how stupid they are falling for my stupid mask... I'm tired of being ignored and pushed away... I wish it would all just end... But...I promised someone...I promised that I would always stand by her side... So that promise I made to my best friend binds me here. Sometimes I wish I'd never met her so I'd have one less reason to hesitate.

Oops, bit of a rant, I'm sorry. >->" It's a very lovely poem you've written here. =3

~Chocolate-Wood Oct 23, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Its alright, I completely understand. Im here any time you want to talk. I hate feeling alone, and I hate others feeling that way anymore. SO really, any time you want to talk, just note me. I'll listen to whatever you need to get off your chest.

Thanks though, for the compliment

~Shadedraygon Sep 17, 2012 Hobbyist Traditional Artist

This is exactly how I feel with out my girl, I know I'm weak, and I try very hard to be strong, but in reality, my strength, is nothing..
I feel so empty with out her, and I feel like that of shattered glass..I cant count how many times Iv'e fallen to my knees in pain..
Is my love for her an obsession? Or, is that what this is, real genuine Love?

~Chocolate-Wood Sep 17, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

I wish so much that I could answer that for you... I really wish I could. But that's something only you can truly know.

~musicminion7813 Sep 9, 2012

How did you nail how I feel almost always? xD

~Chocolate-Wood Sep 10, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Because I'm pretty awesome? Hahah I really dont know, but I seem to get that a lot o.o

~musicminion7813 Sep 10, 2012

Sounds like haha

~Girloftheforests Jun 7, 2012 Hobbyist Digital Artist

I love this one, it touched me emotionally. How on Earth did you figure out how I was feeling today?

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